Thankful

Ringing in the New Year brings new adventures and endless possibilities.
This was one of my favorite times of year.
I loved celebrating new beginnings and having hope that with every new year I had more chances of fulfilling my dreams with my family and reaching new goals I set for myself in my new career.
I looked forward to working towards being better just like so many of us.
I always tried to make that resolution to be a better wife, a better mother, a better daughter, a better friend, a better business woman and just a better person.
Looking back I was never bad at any of those things.
I was a devoted and loving wife, a great mother and daughter.
I was the kind of friend that everyone wishes they could have loyal, fun, giving, trustworthy and would do anything for a friend in need. It’s hard to find friends like that in life.They are far and few between and throughout my life I have learned how important good friends are because it’s not about having lots of friends, but more about the quality of them.
I think most of us are never truly happy with the people we are throughout our lives and always wanting to be something we are not.
I have never met one person who is 100% happy and not trying to change something about themselves.
Most of us spend our entire lives trying to change things and measure up to the person we think we should be to fit into society.
I always thought I wasn’t good enough or yes smart enough or pretty enough or thin enough.
When I had breast cancer and my future was uncertain sometimes I would look back at my old pictures and realized nothing wrong with me.
All the time that was wasted wishing my life away.
I wished I was thin, wished I was pretty, I wished I was a better person. but nothing was wrong with me.
I wish I knew that before I was sick. I had wasted so much time wishing and trying to change into who I thought I should be, without knowing I had everything I wanted sitting right in front of me.
I was just too busy wishing I was the person I thought I should be instead of being thankful.
None of us can ever be perfect.
So why do we try so hard to fit in a mold and be like everyone else ?
The things that make us different are what make us beautiful.
So instead of making resolutions to change ourselves this New Year.
Why don’t we embrace who we are and be happy with what we have and who we are now.
When your daily life is taken from you unexpectedly, the only wish you have is to be the person you were before that day.
The day when everything changed.
That’s when you finally realize all that other stuff doesn’t matter and you already have everything you need if you have your health, family and shelter.
So instead of chasing unicorns why don’t we love the horse we were given in life and be thankful.
We are all different and that’s what makes us beautiful.
This year I am thankful for my family and the life I have.
I only wish to never again take for granted all the wonderful gifts I was given.
Yes this year I am thankful.